Cecilia woloch firefly credit

POSTCARD TO MYSELF FROM THE LOWER CARPATHIANS, SPRING

I slept in a room filled with white moths.­ In a wooden house in the lower Carpathians ­Beskid Niski ­ each silvery night. I made my bed in the room’s far corner, white moths settling like quiet petals on every surface as evening fell. They folded their wings and clung to the walls without a quiver as I undressed. I knew, as soon as I switched off the lamp, that the air would go pale with their fluttering. I knew, in my sleep, one might light on my arm, on my cheek, in my hair, without waking me. In this room, also, the seeds of wildflowers gleaned from the meadows were spread out to dry. What I learned about gentleness then. What I learned to be gently less wary of. I want not to forget those nights in the lower Carpathians, deep spring, sleeping alone: the white moths swirling as I dreamt; the meadows baring themselves to the moon.

(first published in roger, spring 2006)

CUSTOM

"This is no dark custom" ­ Gertrude Stein

Some days you wake up and find god in your shoes and you don't know who put it there. Or the little gold clocks in your irises, or the long stems of sun on your desk. So you just dress in coffee and beautiful rags and be glad of it, ashes and all. And you hum to yourself some ridiculous tune that sounds like a handkerchief stuffed in your mouth. Which means that you won't get a single thing done, oh no not today, but your papers don't mind. They lie around like wanton brides and admire you anyway. Fat apples blossom in baskets left on your table; wine turns into wine. And the windows, my god the windows have gathered absurd amounts of sky. If the shoe fits, the foot must be mine. Someone who loves you dreamed double last night.

(from LATE, BOA Editions, Ltd. 2003)

WISH

We clean the bones of the little birds we eat
with our teeth, then we let them dry.
Later, we split each wish at the crux ­
Many of dollars for both of us.

But love, we are vagabonds still,
our sleep full of bells and kisses, wind.
We have never touched one another enough.
We have never completely eaten our fill.

If I covered your body in lilacs now,
pale purple flowers against your dark skin,
would you not shake my breath from your hair
when you stood, would you wish

that the small birds who fed us had lived?

(first published in Black Rock & Sage, Spring 2005



WAKING ELSEWHERE
(MORNING IN SHEPHERDSVILLE)
(for my grandniece, Paige, at four)

I woke up dreaming my mother's garden ­
fields in autumn, green turning gold,
grasses scythed down in the late, dark sun;
and here will be corn, she was saying, tomatoes,
flowers I never knew she loved.

I woke to a child climbing into my bed
­ girl of a girl of my sister's son ­
hair like silk and the color of wheat
falling into her eyes, begging me to get up.

And in my mother's kitchen the strong light smelled of coffee
and autumn, in fact. In fact, my mother,
who hasn't gardened in twenty years, was taking a bath.
I heard her splashing through the walls. It was October;
the child came forward, one fresh egg cupped in her palm.

I woke up dreaming the harrowed fields,
sharp with stubble, my mother's lands.
She was already preparing for spring; she was already
stepping naked from the bath, away from grief ­

a widow with work to do, weeds in the yard,
and the child calling softly to me, come on, come on, come on.

(from LATE, BOA Editions, Ltd. 2003)